God...grant me the patience, that I clearly do not have.
Ugh, what is wrong w/ me???
Lately, everything/everyone is irritating me.......I don't know what's wrong w/ me.
Yes, I feel lonely...but isn't it about time that I got over that? Ugh. I'm so frustrated with myself.
I feel like I have a serious disorder or something...I mean...I know Cody is my world, but he's not my ENTIRE world...I do have friends, and I do have things I can do on my own. And as much as that 15 month deployment scarred me, shouldn't I be over it by now?
Or maybe that's not it....
maybe it's something else...but WHAT?!
Well it's a fact for sure that I hate this job. This job definitely tests my patience on a daily basis, and I fail miserably everyday. The people I work with frustrate me to no end, and I'm sick of being yelled at over the phone for things I have absolutely no control over. I swear on my life, I will never ever work for another call center ever again. Totally NOT for me.
What IS for me? Will I ever find a job that I love going to everyday? I always think about that Sam Adams commercial...find something you love to do, and you'll never work a day in your life. I need to find that one thing...
School....ugh I hate school, but fear that that is my only way to find something that I like to do?
Ugh....why didn't anyone ever write a book on how much life sucks after a bachelors that's worth hmm pretty much nothing?! Or maybe someone did....maybe I need to find that book.
Anyways, my attitude needs to change that's for sure. I'm so edgy and sensitive to everything....I'm just soooo frustrated!!!!!!!!!
So tomorrow...is another day.
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
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