Grant Me Patience...

God...grant me the patience, that I clearly do not have.

Ugh, what is wrong w/ me???
Lately, everything/everyone is irritating me.......I don't know what's wrong w/ me.

Yes, I feel lonely...but isn't it about time that I got over that? Ugh. I'm so frustrated with myself.
I feel like I have a serious disorder or something...I mean...I know Cody is my world, but he's not my ENTIRE world...I do have friends, and I do have things I can do on my own. And as much as that 15 month deployment scarred me, shouldn't I be over it by now?
Or maybe that's not it....
maybe it's something else...but WHAT?!

Well it's a fact for sure that I hate this job. This job definitely tests my patience on a daily basis, and I fail miserably everyday. The people I work with frustrate me to no end, and I'm sick of being yelled at over the phone for things I have absolutely no control over. I swear on my life, I will never ever work for another call center ever again. Totally NOT for me.

What IS for me? Will I ever find a job that I love going to everyday? I always think about that Sam Adams commercial...find something you love to do, and you'll never work a day in your life. I need to find that one thing...

School....ugh I hate school, but fear that that is my only way to find something that I like to do?
Ugh....why didn't anyone ever write a book on how much life sucks after a bachelors that's worth hmm pretty much nothing?! Or maybe someone did....maybe I need to find that book.

Anyways, my attitude needs to change that's for sure. I'm so edgy and sensitive to everything....I'm just soooo frustrated!!!!!!!!!

So tomorrow...is another day.