5.19.2012 - another chapter begins. another deployment.
this time it feels different. maybe it's because we're married - maybe it's because i'm surrounded by military family, whatever it is, it's different. maybe it's the fact that we'll be able to skype and i'll be able to see his face whenever we want.....or maybe it's the fact that the war is ending (hopefully) and that this will be the last one? who knows. but whatever it is, i'm like numb. i'm not sad, i'm not happy, i'm not emotional. okay, maybe i am emotional - what girl isn't? i'm just meh. meh meh meh.
i just wish i was closer to my family - the feeling of being plopped in the middle of nowhere is back. i know i have a support system here, i know it just takes one phone call to have someone come over, but it's just, not the same.