I think it's starting to hit me....that I've been alone for almost a month now. I mean, I have tried to stay busy. And my weekends have been filled with activities....it's just not the same. It's sad to say, but I should be used to this. We've spent most of our relationship when we were dating in two different states, if not country. And he was gone for the first 6 months of when we first moved to TN. So I should be used to it right? Who would've thought that I would get married, and have to spend all this time by myself.
Well....it's a little bit...daunting? I guess I'm not really having issues with the alone part...as much as the sleeping part. There are days, when I'm so lonely that I don't move from the couch...but I think I've pretty much got that under control....well for now. But sleep...is another issue.
Again, something I should be used to. Seeing as he worked midnight shifts....but I can't seem to get used to it. I lay on the couch until I am absolutely tired, and ready to just fall asleep....
Otherwise, I will lay in bed, and be terrified of every little noise coming through the thin walls and doors. Get used to it Jin....just get used it already.
The other day, Cody thanked me for being his wife. It might've been something small to him, but it meant so much to hear that. Thank you. Two words, with a whole lot of meaning.
It makes me think...am I crazy for going through with this? Did I really have a choice?
Ah, the questions in my head.
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